When Love Happens

You're In My Arms
And All The World is Calm
The Music playing on for only two
So Close Together
And when I'm With You
So Close to Feeling Alive.

I'm currently playing the song. My heart still beats fast with every word. But it no longer brings pain and confusion the way it did the first time I read your email.

Life is full of surprises.

I like you, you like me, but it's always not enough. Who would have thought that the adversities we had with our past relationships and the many times we thought we like each other won't bring us together? God's plan is so mysterious yet wonderful.

I always thought that I was meant to be with you.

Was it because it will be easier to be with you? You… someone I know, someone I trust, someone I respect, someone I like, someone I love as a friend, someone who could always make me smile, someone sweet and someone to whom I dedicated the song "Muntik na Kitang Minahal", hahaha! Or was it because I believed for so long that I like you that I already got used and settled with the idea? It frustrated me before that it does not happen the way I wanted it, we don't fall in love the way I thought we should. The more I wanted the universe to pull us together, the more you resist it. Until I gave up and accepted that we're really just friends. And I was happy with us being just friends.

But love happens when you least expect it.

Or was it simply destiny? By accepting our friendship again, we began to know each other again. I say "again" because even though we did not stop being friends, I believe we lost the old sweetness and innocence of our friendship back in college. You must admit that somehow there used to be a wall between us. We're not as close as we used to be. I blame the people around us who kept on teasing us. I blame myself for being affected. I blame you for being.. I don't know, weird? hahaha! You irritate and embarrass me with your reactions. But I know you'll argue that you react that way because of my reaction as well. It's just my pride talking. ;) Funny, but it's a cycle. But by being friends again, the awkwardness is lost. The wall that was built (unintentionally) between us started to melt. And that's how it should be. Love does not happen just because you want it to. Love is allowed to grow on its own, in its own time, in God's own time.

I wanted to hold your hands but now they are mine.

And yes sweetie, they're mine. I wanted to touch your lips, but now they are mine to kiss. You used to think that we're so close and still so far. Now we're so far... but still so close. It's not an easy journey. But with you, I take the risks.